Venting...

Well, lets see,
It's been a busy couple days. More stuff with my family has been bothering me. Just don't feel like I'll ever make them proud like they are proud of Kelly and Stacy. I can't help it if I don't have the richest boyfriend in the world. I can't help if I don't have the nicest/and most expensive things. I'm sorry that my friends are the most classy ones out there. All I know is that Brandon and I have something that Kelly and Stacy will NEVER have. And that's strength to deal with the most shittiest problems ever. Yea, Stacy went through what I went through, but honestly, not as bad. I'm not trying to compete problems here, because who would want to do that anyway.
In the 20 years that I have been alive, I have learned alot. A.L.O.T. Things I never thought i'd EVER learn. I know that you can't always fall back on family. I know that friends are NOT always there. And I know that love... is the most AMAZING thing in the world and CAN get you through ANYTHING. I learned that the world "hero" has many meanings. I learned that I can do anything I want to, I just need to get the motivation. I realized that I can try to tell myself not to "think" to much, but face it, if we didn't "think" too much, we wouldn't be who we are. I know that I love God, and he will always love me, but that doesn't mean I have to be this PERFECT girl. I will always make mistakes, just like anyone else. I will always know that deep down, I am a little worried about my future and I'll be thinking about it from time to time. But, I will also try not to worry about it too much. I think that we all need to slow down and just enjoy the world God put around us. That's all.